First of all, thank you for leaving me this message. Thanks for opening up and letting me know how you feel about this, because it really means a lot to me to see that and to read it.
Okay. So I want to start off by saying: Stop being so hard on yourself. There’s no reason for you to go down on yourself so much about behavior that is extremely natural and usual for an aspiring writer. There’s nothing wrong with you; this is just a natural period you’ll have to get through, a period that almost always comes at the beginning of being a writer.
Don’t be jealous of me; you have no reason to be. You will get to this point of writing, the point that I’m at, no matter how long it takes. The thing is that I used to be exactly like you. I’ve known that I want to be an author ever since I was little also, but it took me a long time to actually be able to start writing seriously, to be able to take all my ideas and turn them into an actual novel. I used to always have these ideas that I thought could be great, long novels, but whenever I tried to write anything, I couldn’t get past the third chapter without abandoning the story because it wasn’t going anywhere. But now things are better.
I find it silly that you say that I make it look so easy, because it’s not. Not for me, not for anyone (unless you’re like, some super-abnormally-skilled writing machine.) Writing is hard. It’s the most amazing thing I love to do and the hardest thing I do. I’m not at the state at which I’d like to be with writing yet, the state where I can just pound out words like crazy and finish a novel in a couple months. It takes me forever to write; I’m a very slow writer, and it’s so hard to find inspiration sometimes. The days where I’m actually progressive are sparse. Mostly when I try to write, I just stare at the document all day while procrastinating and doing stupid things on the internet. I wish I could write fast, and write a lot, instead of doing more procrastinating than actual writing. And whenever I’m not writing, it kills me.
So yeah, writing is hard. I don’t think it’ll ever stop being hard. But I stick through with it and make myself get through all the pain that comes with it and all the hard times because writing is my life, it’s who I am and it’s in my veins and it’s me and it’s my passion.
What I’m trying to say here is that you think too lowly of yourself and of your own potential to become a writer. Because you can. The fact that you’re unable to write now means nothing; I was like that just some years ago, and I’m still like that from time to time—rather a lot.
I think you definitely can and will get to the point at which you want to be as a writer. You clearly have the passion and determination, even if you don’t think so. If you didn’t have both things, you wouldn’t care so much about writing and about your desire to be a writer. Someone who has wanted to be a writer since they were in Kindergarten, someone who has had that ambition for years is definitely determined and passionate about it—not only that, but there’s a guarantee they’ll get it if they never give up on the desire.
The fact that you were able to finish writing something as a class project is a huge step toward what you want. That’s impressive; who cares what was the reason or drive behind it? If you can do it once, you’ll be able to do it a thousand times in the future, and not just for class anymore.
I am in no way better than you, contrary to what you said. I’m just another teenager who has a passion for writing and who is trying to reach that state of prolificness in this art, just like you. I’m just another struggling writer, like you. You are going to get to this stage—you are going to surpass this stage and one day you’ll be able to flush out novels like crazy. I promise you that you’ll become a writer if you only don’t give up and lose hope.
Be patient. That’s all you have to do. You’re young, and so am I; we’ve got plenty of time to reach the point in writing that we want to reach. You don’t have to feel frustrated because right now you can’t write; it will come to you in good time. And when it does, you’ll look back on this stage that you were in and feel achieved and accomplished because of it.
Don’t get frustrated at yourself. This is a normal stage that all writers go through at the beginning. Don’t get frustrated about it, because you’ll get out of it and you’ll become a writer and you’ll find the drive that you see writers have.
Keep thinking about your ideas. Harbor them and let them fester inside your brain. I suggest that you write them down; even if you can’t turn them into stories yet, you should write down any ideas you have. Maybe you could keep a notebook of your ideas or a word document or something; just have them in one place. Whenever you get an idea, record it in that place. That way you’ll be able to go back to the ideas later when you’re finally able to write, and you’ll be inspired. Even now, read from that notebook or document and try to think of ways you could expand on these ideas.
Some tips on how to make yourself write at this period in time: Every day, sit down at your computer or at your notebook (depending on whether you prefer to handwrite or type) for a certain amount of time (maybe half an hour, maybe an hour, it’s up to you). If you’re on your computer, disable your internet. If you’re on a notebook, make sure there’s nothing around you that could distract you. Then just write about anything. It doesn’t have to be a story, it doesn’t have to be anything formal. It can be something creative, something very random; or it can be something basic. It doesn’t have to be fictional, or it can be; come up with any kind of prompt to get the words flowing. You could look outside your window and describe the images that meet your eyes. Look up a picture of nature or of some kind of setting on the internet and describe it. Or go further with that—think of who lives there, what kind of creatures or people you’d find there, and just let your pen or fingers move. Or think of a character that would fit in that picture and begin describing them; how they look, their personality, their flaws, their background. Even writing a journal entry about things that happened during your day would help and could ignite your creative spark. Just write something every day. Practice writing anything each day and I guarantee you that it will be a lot easier when you try to take your ideas and make them into stories.
I don’t think I have to tell you to read a lot, because most aspiring writers already love reading. But if you do read a lot, that’s great, because that’s what will also really help you. Read fantasy books, read realistic fiction books, read mystery books, read every novel you can get your hands on. You’ll get very inspired from those. And if you can, go visit scenes of nature, like a forest or a meadow or a lake, and bring a notebook with you. Nothing inspires me more or gets me writing more than being surrounded by nature.
This answer has gotten ridiculously long and it’s turned into more of an essay than a response, so I’ll wrap it up here.
Don’t think that your case is hopeless, because it’s not. You have so much potential and you will become a writer, even if it takes a lot more time than it already has. Never give up on your ambition to become a writer, and never lose hope that it will happen, because I’m telling you that it will. Write every day, as much as you can, and keep harboring all those ideas.
Soon enough you’ll be working on your first novel.